Christmas eve =)

Hey guys. Ok so yesterday was great. We had a really great time at angie's party hehe so that was fun. Luckily tara (amy's sister) gave rob and i a lift home so we didn't walk it back.

Today was pretty ok. Stayed home and watched stardust (adorable film- really worth watching =D) visited my great grandmother and went home to shower, change and go to mass. The mass was really fun and bett, philly and i had the time of our lives giving out those soap bubbles teehee. We all danced around and had a really good laugh. At around half ten the coach came for us and took us back to luxol so then we quickly caught a bus down to paceville once it was only 25c and stopped just infront of us (haha lazy people) We went to paceville and stayed in olde keg for a while (I stayed burning a straw- what a loser =P).

After that, we went to alpacino for food and rob, brooks, sam and I walked up to rob's house so that brooks' mum could pick both him and sam up. Bob and I walked to my house and bob was pretending to be santa- weirdo =P I gave him his beanbag spotted person thing and we've seemed to have named it 'ball' =P
Rob left here at like 1am and now it's 1:28am so I think that I'll go up to bed once my sister will probably wake me up at some odd time like 6am =/
Good night world, God bless you all and oh, happy Christmas =)

the past week..

Ouch, it's been ten days; sorry =/
I wrote down a really long post on tuesday but I went upstairs to get something and in the mean time my dad switched the computer off- depressing. Ok here's the description of the last week:

Saturday: Woke up at like 8 to meet ilaria to go to school to set up stands for youngenterprise but ms elaine forgot about us and we ended up going to sliema instead. We looked around and me tthe guys in mc donalds. After we went home I realxed a bit (lazed around teehee =P) and eventually showered, changed, and went to the parent mass. It was a really great mass. Fine, Dun Gorg spoke about the same things for the last three consecutive parent masses but atleast the message actually stuck in (especially after not being into Christmas in general this year). It was about how Christ has been totally removed from Christmas and all and how we need to keep the fire burning etc. Then we went to paceville, ivan gave me my first 'of aged' hug and matt bought me my first legal drink =P (vodka lime mmmm) uwija by 1am, tine and I were home. I found a really beautiful ring on my bed from my mum when I got home ('tis lovely) We stayed up till like 2am but kinda regretted it when we woke up nackered =P
Sunday (my birthday =P) : Woke up tired haha, showered and walked to luxol with illy to watch glenn's game. That was a laugh XD Even though sliema won (much to our disgust once their attitudes were appaling) they're still like 5th in the league and st. andrews (luxol) are 1st =D so after all, it's still ok. Angie and glenn left after the game but illy and i stayed back laughing and talking and eentually walked to her house so that she could change and pick up andrew (her brother). We met vicky on the bus and when we finally arrived at TGI fridays, we waited for the 40 people my mum booked for (even though i told her 50 =/) Well, we ended up reaching around 60 and adding tables but it was so worth it! I got some really cute presents which was so awkward because I honestly didn't expect anything. After getting stuffed on like half my meal haha they embarrased me so so much. I was sitting near drew and suddenly 'happy birthday' music came on, so i tried to slip under the table so that when the song finishes I could reappear as if nothing happened. In the meantime, ivan was throwing sugar at me, drew was pulling me from underneath the table and rob was telling me to come out cos he loves me XD well it was some amazing chocolate fontanella cake but still it was the most embarrasing thing EVER!! Eventually i got home, changed and walked to luxol with tine. well, we won our footie game *glee* even though zoe and I are complete hopeless cases XD bettina was amazing though =D all in all, my birthday rocked! (oh and quite a few times i forgot that it was my birthday *loser*)

Monday: My alarm didn't ring and my mum left me sleep which was great. i think that's it haha.

Tuesday: School was fun hehe but I ended up in such pain. My tongue ended up covered in blisters and ulcers and all I could do was sleep to numb the pain =S well that's really it; not too much of a day hehe.

Wednesday: Didn't go to school again hehe. Went to hospital in the afternoon to see about my ulcers and now I have a gastroscopy on the 28th so please pray for me =) oh and just in case you don't know what a gastroscopy is; they're shoving a camera down my throat and into my stomach to see what's wrong with me =P

Thursday: School was the same I guess. didn't do anything special afterwards..

Friday: Friday was goooood =P I stayed waking up early for ONE lesson once school finished at 10am and she had the cheek not to come- how dare she =P I spent the morning with jean, steve, karl, matt, tyron and sam meeting gruppetta, ben, ivan and sam but by the afternoon we just ended up jean, steve, nikki and I. Jean and I bussed it to baystreet and bought vicky's birthday present from me (pink bellyring) and nikki's Christmas present from him (not mentioning haha). Then I went home and changed, packed my bag and went to vicky. I got there at like half seven and amy vicky and I stayed watching bratz XD what losers we are haha. We even named ourselves after them >.< up ="P" change ="S)

Saturday: Woke up and had a deep discussion with the girls and then ate bread and cheesecakes for breakfast XD Ilaria's dad picked herself, nikki and I up to take us to a dance rehersal. Then I went home and met bob and amy to go shopping. We met brooks and glenn which was pretty funny. At around half 4 bettina and phillippa came together with drea. we went on our traditional 'bubble shopping spree' and spent lm4 each on 98 of our soap bubbles from M&S =D *beautiful* we met achie, beppe, svetlana, louis, leon and I think a few more people and went shopping for bett and phil. Philly lost her wallet and luckily some kind person actually gave it into the cashier at zara *miracle from God* ! We missed the last bus so luckily stefan came for us and took us to their house. We watched mean girls (quite a girlie film weekend ux =P ?) and then drea gave me a lift home. I walked down to paceville for around an hour and then went home. by 2am I slept- I think =P Today is now sunday so i'll post about everything later on, till then- adios and God bless you =) !!

an eventful day..

Hello.
Ok so this morning, tammy (ilaria's cat) woke vicky and I up at like 7:15 and then we relaxed in bed (the floor =P) around for around 45minutes and then vicky changed and I straightened her hair and then she fell over in slow motion XD After she left illy and I lazed around till like half 9, went downstairs and cut the business cards and wrote our scripts for this evening. After that, we went back up, showered and changed and eventually met up with bob to walk down to hard rock. I ate a really good chicken burger and chips *mmmm* After I went home, showered, changed, bob blowdried his hair, all in the process of a really foul mood, I suddenly felt really sick- but like REALLY sick. When we arrived at LAL for the launch, everything that I could see was all fuzzy. I was given points to read so I couldn't read my own pretty words =P Uwija, at least the launch was quite a success despite all the confusion and hassels. We managed to sell our product too =) (just to let you guys know, i typed all the above out before but closed the page by mistake- haha see, I stayed trying to remember and rewriting eveything) After the launch we went to timesquare for a couple of drinks as outyoungenterprise team together with a couple more people who were involved.
All in all it was a pretty hectic day, and I'm still feeling all blehh but I've got better. God bless you and good night

BMAs at illy

Ok sorry that I didn't post yesterday, I was really busy and tired and I slept at like 10pm XD I'm at ilaria with vicky at the moment watching the BMAs. Ok so the plan is that we sleep over at illy's house and her and I will sleep in whilst vicky leaves at like 8am to go to accounts private lessons *loser* haha poor girl. When we finally wake up, we'll relax and laze around and eventually shower. Then we'll walk down to Hard Rock for her birthday lunch thing.
Ok great news- salt won a BMA (fyi salt is the best Christian band in malta)!! Oh and along with Salt thanking God for their success, so did wintermoods and j joy.. Know what that means- the world is finally changing =D Yey, Jesus can be found in every space and corner *glee* He's contagious!!
I'm kinda tired but not, it's a really weird feeling =/ I still have to write Glenn's script for tomorrow's launch = And if i don't find mine, I'll have to rewrite that too. I think I'm going to go and take more funny photos and pay attention to the BMAs hehe.
Good night and God bless you all =)

I'm back

Hi guys.
Havn't posted in TOO long! I've been really caught up in everything- school, youngenterprise, friends, family; everything!! I'm going to try and start posting every other day or so, just to keep record on my life and eveything so that I can look back and see changes (good and bad I guess).
School's great at the moment, everything is falling into place and I actually started studying (for like an hour in all but uwija =P). So far we've had three physics tests (fail/pass/NA) and a philosophy one which I aced =D English is really fun, I've done really well compared to my class and art is ok. It's just graphic communication/engineering drawing that's got me totally baffled (oh, and systems of knowledge but that doesn't count =P).
Hmm what else? Oh 'birthday spree' is just about to start haha. Here comes the everlasting list:

14th- ilaria's birthday
16th- me =P
22nd- vicky
23rd- angie
25th- Jesus =D
26th- steve, stefan
27th- my grandfather (80- wow!!)
29th- matthew

I think that's it. Pretty long huh? Oh and there's Christmas on Jesus' too =P So I can tell you from now, I'm officially BANKRUPT!! Oh and not to mention the up coming occasions:

13th- vertebrae (our youngenterprise company) launch, ilaria's birthday lunch
15th- traditional bubble shopping with bett and phil, parent's mass
16th- my birthday lunch, y4j footie match
21st- vicky's birthday dinner
22nd- vicky's hilarious horse riding thing
23rd- angie's party
24th- y4j mass, 'breakfast'
31st- new years eve

Three jam packed weeks!! haha I promise to post after every occasion- promise =P So in these last two months LOADS fo things happened and if I was to start mentioning, I'd never stop; so I'm not going to haha. I just really want to say it's hard living the life of a teenage girl but hey, I've got Jesus and I know that He's a BIG plus!! Not saying that life is easier, believe me- it's probably harder- but it's gives you that sense of reassurance. Not too sure if I'm making much sense all I know is that I am to me.
That's it I guess, God bless you all and thanks for the patience (even though a few of you bugged me to blog quite a few times =P haha love you guys)
~ to be continued (tomorrow) ~

school day one =P

First day of school. Hmm what can I say? Weird! Ok, so I nearly missed my graphic communication/engineering drawing lessons cos I wrote down room 139 instead of 159 which inconviently does not exsist XD Oh and I couldn't find 420B because there wasn't a sign on the door >.< Uwija, I got to them in the end. Luckily my last art lesson was switched to wednesday so I have five lessons after eachother and not six. The lessons were cool I guess even though I fell asleep in art XD That was a funny experience, thank God the teacher was ok with it once he was old and stuff and just laughed at me when I said sorry =P That's really it hehe, now we'll see about tomorrow though I'm not worried cos the day's great (art, free, systems, philosophy, home)
Good night and God bless =)

first few days of a whole new world

It's nearly 9 at the moment and I soon have to go upstairs to shower and get all my stuff ready and continue reading harry potter once again =P Tomorrow we start school; officially. I've been in on monday, tuesday and today but the real stuff starts tomorrow. Till now, all we've done is get our timetables sorted, go shopping (stationary and clothes funnily enough =P), pirce my eleventh hole (XD) and laugh at evething possible. My time table's pretty good apart from thursdays! God, thursdays suck so much. I start with phyiscs and english, then a free, followed by engineering drawing/draphic communication, english, double art, philosphy and art again.. EIGHT HOURS OF LESSONS AND ONE HOUR FREE!! ouch =( Oh well, at least it's the only messed up day hehe. I kinda hope that I'd know a person in every lesson but i really want to pay attention so I'm better off on my own. I know that I have matthew in 3 of my english classes and glenn is with me for systems so hopefully we won't get all distracted but help eachother instead.. hopefully =P

Anways I'm getting slightly excited for the big dig on friday hehe. Just yesterday we finished the gifts =D I'm sure it's going to be great cos I'm really being attacked at the moment =/ Now I'll post all that on friday at like 1pm when I come in from school before I leave to go and set up. Take care and I'll post again tomorrow about how the first worse school day I'll have everyweek for the next two years was hehe. God bless!

bye bye mobile

And once again, I'm mobileless. It got stolen but I'm really ok about it. The only thing I'm actually really going to miss is the amazing photo of my soul survivor tent =( I guess it's because I've grown not to get too attached to things. Now if it was my bible I would have cried for hours (or maybe my "smoosh me" pillow =P) but I'm really not stressing. The point is, bad stuff happens and it's ok. It happens to everyone. I'm just really happy that it wasn't bob's spare nokia once i've been using it for over two weeks except this weekend. All we really have to do is praise God and keep Him as our focus point. Keep looking to Jesus =)

abortion

Hey guys! So this morning a group of us went to qawra to help sort out some clothes so that they could be sold in order to raise money for the mothers of children who resisted aborting their child. It was great haha, we really laughed. One big thank you to debbie for letting us know about it; cheers lovely =) Anyways, I remembered a topic in the Y4J forum on abortion. Here's the link:
http://forum.y4jmalta.com/index_openarticle.aspx
My post is on page 9 hehe, slightly blunt XD. There's the link on that page but I'll just put it down over here just incase..
http://www.jonsplace.org/rel/abortionpics.htm
I also found this site today. It's incredible! You have got to read the story of the fetus holding the surgeon's hand from a womb (the picture before the post hehe). It's awesome! Actually, God's awesome!! Here it is; check it out:
http://www.bible.ca/H-Abortion.htm
Oh and this is the site of the anti abortion commitee that we helped out =)
http://www.lifemalta.org/
(teehee that means that I'm actually 16 and a half years old = +9)

good old friends

Very random post haha. Today I met one of my closest school friends ever; martin meli. Meli (aka my fidansato XD) and I became close during our italian lessons (hence the fidansato.. weird teacher hehe). We'd always be there for eachother, through thick and thin and we'd always turn around to help one and other. Meeting him was awesome. I felt so so happy! Seriously, it was like a giant balloon swelled up inside of me. Not going to elaborate on what we spoke about and all, but the idea of meeting some one who you love so much after a few months really shows how true your friendship is when you can just start talking as if the last time you met was yesterday (apart from all the hugs and "I missed you" 's >.<).

Keep close to those you love guys, and remind them how you feel. For after all, you'll never be able to replace any of them =)

gozo

We're back =) Gozo was great fun hehe. Became a couch potato XD Took loads of photos of everything. Bob and I got up to some lame things that made everything so mch funnier.. Anyways, we really laughed. Just a few things that I saw God's beauty in at that time: the sea, the sky and the stars, teehee it all looked so gorgeous. On the first night the sky was incredibly clear and the stars looked brighter than ever, the place was over looking the sea which looked like glass and the sky had the most oddly shaped clouds (the fluffy kind hehe) that had all shades of white, grey, blue and pink.
Anyway, take care and God bless

(At the moment it's raining *in malta* and I must say; I'M LOVING IT!!)

good vandalism =P

Just a quick post hehe. The guys are camping at the moment, they pitched up last night and are staying there tonight too. As usual, I woke up early and went to the site to meet them. Under the carreb tree there's a kind of semi-cirlular area that has a legde (like a bench). Without realising, I picked up a small stone and engraved a cross with the word 'love' near it. Then buzu underlined it and drew a small dove. I really liked it hehe, I just really wish that one day somebody will see it and they will stop to think about God. Never know, maybe somebody would convert =P Ok that's slightly exaggerated, but you can never be sure ;) When I come back from gozo I'll go and take a photo of it and post it too because I hadn't taken my camera with me.
I'll post when I get back =) Take care and God bless!

friendship and family

Ok since sunday, my parents and sister have been abroad making my house open to practically everyone all day and all night. There have been a few problems going on this week but what I've really realised is that we all comfort each other as well as argue and laugh (with and at each other =P). I really feel that we've become like a family. Families are ment to be built on trust and love and even though many people don't have a good relationship with their families, they can build their own families with their friends. All we have to do is trust one and other and show love towards each other as well as respect. The only way that we can actually do that is by getting to know each other's habbits and ways and doing things that make them happy and feel loved. In that way, we let them know that we love them and they will do the same. Guys, we're all brothers and sisters in Jesus making us one family.. Let's actually try to act more like one =)

rain =D

Waking up today was great! There was a sound of pattering and so i looked out of my window and it was raining- YEPEEEE!! Seeing rain falling from the sky again was so incredible. The last time that I saw rain was in England and I was so happy to have a little bit of 'soul survivor' back =P It only lasted for around half a minute, but believe me, it was great! I went to my mum and told her, "Jesus loves me." and she replied with a confused, "what?" and I reapeated, "Jesus loves me!". She then asked if I'd been praying for rain and I said, "yeah, I've been telling God how much I want rain since the day we returned."
It was kick ass teehee =D

trust Jesus

Another wave incident =P This time we were six of us (pete, vicky, amy, beverly, danelle and I) on a paddle boat. We went out at sea and laughed and swam and laughed some more.. Pete brought his bag with us and I brought my mobile. Suddenly, the current changed and became really strong and the paddle boat started to flood because the waves were giant. At a time, bev and I were paddling and it made no difference; the boat just wouldn't budge! I started to panic slightly (because of my mobile and pete's bag and not us capsizing and hurting or something- materialistic rubbish =P) and was getting pretty nervous. Then, I'm not sure who said to praise God for this situation and we all started praising God, thanking Him for the power that the sea has over us and that He has over the see. We sang 'when tears fall' 'nothings gonna hold me back' and then 'I will trust' over and over and with real meaning and faith that we would be fine. We arrived all in one piece and with everyone/everything still there and in working condition =P. The point is, we need to learn how to trust Jesus. He lead us out of that situation that could have been really bad and it's all because we left it in His hands and had faith =)

zombies

Another dream.. I was a zombie. Now I know that it sounds weird, but this actually makes sense. This happened sunday night and monday morning we got the eastpack catalog and at a time during the y4j meeting I was feeling kinda dead but then I have no clue what happened but my mood just flipped over and I was filled with joy and energy and had the urge to tell everyone that I loved them haha.

Ok, back to the dream. I dreamt that I was a zombie and that I needed to fix things that I had done in my life and the only way was to become human. Now only if I walked into the sun with an open mind and heart would my body actually live again. It sounds really lame but inside my own world, it made sense and I really had to want to let go and step out of my cool, dark room where i was safe inside my own habitat. There were times where I walked into the sun and felt nothing, just plain numbness (once I was dead) and then there were times where I'd become human and my plans would start to form and lead somewhere.

I guess all that I'm trying to say is that we are practically dead unless we actually step out and follow Christ. Sometimes we're just wondering around and searching for answers, just like zombies; neither dead nor alive. But we really need to keep ourselves focused on God, and not only will we live on earth, but for eternity with Him in Heaven =)

lightning

Wow, talk about not posting.. It's been nearly two months = I was kinda caught up with stuff, especially the excitment of Soul Survivor and adapting to reality when we returned =P I've been meaning to post for over a week now but I never got down to doing it.
So, last night i dreamt of a lightning storm. It wasn't any normal one, it felt real. So apart from the lightning and the excessive rain and even more lightning, there were people getting hurt all around me. Now instead of being sensible and doing what anybody in their right mind wouldf have done, I decided that Jesus would take care of me if I decided to run through the storm to try and help others. Well, I remained in the storm and all I could say was "Jesus, protect me; I need to save the others". And believe it or not, He was there all along =D If only you knew how many times a bolt missed me, I mean, one time I burned hot it was so close.
My whole point is that if only we pray and have faith together with trust in God, we're safe; nothing what so ever can harm us =) So just trust Him guys, He'll lead you through any storm unharmed.

fire

Ahhhh long time no post.. A lot has happened in the past few weeks. Mela, today we burnt our school notes =D I must day, it was quite enjoyable =P Burning maltese notes was by far the most satisfactory. Anywho, at a time I sat down on a tree branch and just stared into the fire. I've always had a passion for fire, ever since I was young. I remember the first time i was aloud to light a match XD Hehe that was fun. But as i stared into the fire, I thought about what Xixa said that Dun Karm (I think it was him) had said: "God is fire. The Father is the flame, the Son is the light and the Spirit is the warmth". After that, I looked into the embers and compared myself to them; slowly dying because of the lack of the fire. Embers have little light, warmth and possibly a flame or two appearing once in a while, but they need fire and the come from fire. We need God and we come from God. I'm not sure if I'm making any sense, but I am to myself hehe.. and no need to mention but I'll do so anyway- our God is a consuming fire =D oh and fire is pure too.. take care guys; God bless.

powerful water

Yesterday five of us rented a paddle boat and another three a canoe. The see was jam packed with jellyfish, imma full!! Literally, there were more jellyfish than fish (so I presume =P ) It was pretty damn cool being out there laughing like total losers and eventually I jumped on to a canoe. The only time I've ever canoed was once in summer camp 2004, but that was with jean sitting behind me and all we had done was hit boats with our oars XD So it really was a site seeing me freaking out over any tiny wave coming just incase I capsized into 'jellyfish-land'.. especially when the spead boat circled us and all the waves where everywhere!! I freaked out big time hehe, you see the only way to over come a wave is by going into it head on.. But when there are waves coming from all directions- there's no way you can go into one head on without hitting another from your side =S Uwija, so I was stuck like a total loser and all I could do was close my eyes and say "Jesus, PLEASE save me!" out loud over and over and some how; I didn't capsize =D After all that fun ( =P no really it was fun) we went back into the bay, and just when I thought that I was safe, bob tells me to hold onto his rope, I obeyed, a small wave turned me around and once I was pulling a rope, plop- I flipped over! I must say it was terribly hilarious but I was terrified. I jumped onto the canoe (upsidown by the way) and couldn't move. I got stung in quite a few places and all but not that badly so it was just really funny. But now it occured to me that life is sort of like that. Being surrounded by all those waves and telling Jesus to save me is like being drowned by problems and telling God that He's in control. And when I did capsize, it was because I didn't let go of bob's rope, like when we don't let go of a problem or a bad habit. Soooo, all we really have to do is put God in charge and we'll be fine!

joking around with lyrics

For the last 5 or 6 days, tine and I have been singing songs to bob. Not just singing songs to him, but singing songs about him. Basically just getting his name and an adjective to describe him and placing them in songs that we already know. It started off at the beach when we has coming out of the water. Tine and I started to laugh at his total 'surfer dude' appearance and commented on the way that with a bit of working out he could be the number one model for O'neil etc. Anywhoooo, we started singing stuff like 'oh bob, i wana be with you' and stuff and brooks joined in so we all ended up laughing. but this thing kept going on and on saturday we changed the lyrics of the song 'our God is an awesome God' and stayed singing all afternoon. This really has no point when it comes to leading a Christian life apart from knowing Christian songs and replacing words to joke around with bob, but I realised how powerful lyrics really are. We sang that song the sunday before after d-group mass and last saturday during a short time of ministry and naturally I started smiling like a cheshire cat. If you sing it with complete meaning, you just feel so warm inside and personally i feel like I'm going to burst! 'Awesome'. Such a meaningful word and we use it in a song which many people just sing along to as a praise song. If only we could really understand how incredibly awesome God is.

Father's day

Today is father's day. Wow big thing! Really I just think that it's all comercial and another lame way to get people to believe that by giving a card or something to you're biological father on this 'special' day makes the world a better place or something. Maybe you do not have a good relationship with your father or he lives abroad or has passed away so today doesn't really leave you feeling great. But there is someone who we usually tend to forget on this day; our Father. You know, the dude who created everything, gave up His son for us, holds everything in his hands- God. I really think that we should take time out today to really tell God how much we love Him and appreciate what He's done for we. Because when all alse fails and everyone turns their backs on you, He's the one guy who won't. He's the 'role model' for all dads. What an earthly dad can't do He can, and this is even cooler- what an earthly dad can do He can do it soo many times better! Even if you think that your father is the greatest on earth, your Father in heaven outshines everything. So for all you guys who are slightly bummed about father's day, don't worry- your Father loves you =D

Our Lady

There's this park we go to sometimes in pembroke to get away from the swieqi/paceville area because it tends to get naqa boring hehe. There's a statue of Mary our Mother towards the back of it. Many people say she looks scary cos her eyes are half closed so at night it looks like she's blinking, but personally, I think she's beautiful. I guess that I have a thing for Our Lady because my mum used to pray to her a real lot and apparently she really prayed to Mary for a child, so I don't know, I just really love the idea of having Jesus' own mother as my own =) so the last time we passed by this statue, I said a prayer to Mary infront of her and I really felt great. I didn't really have anything troubling my mind, but I seriously felt as if a weight was lifted off my shoulders.. Hekk, it felt really good hehe. She's been known to apear to people and really help. Her heart was crushed when she saw what Jesus went through and she can really understand pain so we can really trust that she can help when we're in a situation with someone we love hurting us or being hurt.

carved on His palms

Today my sister was studying religion whilst I was baking one really buttery cake hehe. She was studying some question to do with the sabbath days of christians (sunday), jews (saturday) and muslims (friday). I asked her if she knew anything about the jews and muslims and obviously, she didn't. Uwija, I told her that the jews don't believe that Jesus is the messiah and the muslims follow the prophet mohammed and believe in allah. Then she asked why we all seem to have 'ALLA' on our palms. I told her that it doesn't mean anything and we don't actually have God writen on our palms in maltese. But I did tell her that God has our names written on His palms. Every single name of every single person that has died, is living and still has to be born. She was pretty damn impressed and is quite sure that God has really huge hands =P I also told her that if God was a normal everyday guy, He'd have her picture on His fridge. Then she asked if God does have a fridge so I told her that it was just an example and she said that she understood even though her expression showed nothing more than 'huh?'. Hopefully I didn't confuse her that much; I wouldn't want to get the blame if she failed a religion exam in grade 5 =P

sick

Ment to finish exams today; note the 'ment' =( I'm really sick (again) and I couldn't go this morning. 102 fever and kinda a tummy bug and my eyes feel like they're going to fall out or as if I havn't blinked in months! Blehh I don't like this feeling; it sucks. oh well, screw the london art paper 2 exam, to hell with the twenty pounds and bring on summer, and something to get me well once and for all hehe

Made by God

This morning, i caught the bus, uwija nothing special. I was reading my book and listening to music. I looked up and out of the window and saw the sea and it looked like glass. It was so still and so peaceful. I started to think about all the times that I've seen amazing sunsets or sunrises or just beautiful views and stuff, and it dawned on me; what an awesome God! It's as if everything reflects His beauty and small things like that make me really appreciate all He's done for me. I'm just so glad that He went through everything for me =D

Not five star, but SIX!

I was thinking last night; we’re like travellers walking on a road. We’re dead tired and don’t have a place to live, so we spend our lives walking on and on until we reach the right place to stay. Now on the way there are many inns and guest-houses and stuff. Some people stop at the first place they see, some other’s wait to find somewhere more comfortable, but some others ignore all of them, despite their situation. We are the ones who ignore all the signs and bilboards saying ‘bed and breakfast’ and just keep walking by.
This is because life is all about waiting for the right thing to come around, and not taking a shot at something because it’s convinient for us. In the end, we reach an amazing hotel with everything we need for free. The hotel is Heaven and the price has been paid by Jesus! Not five star, but SIX! All for us. So hang in there, I know it’s really hard at times, but hey- it’s worth it =D

The kid that I adore

Ok so, a year ago today (16/05/06) my uncle’s partner, Rita, gave birth to the most gorgeous kid alive.. I’m serious =P Mela, I’m really NOT into children, it’s practically a known fact hehe. The way that they scream and cry and drool and cry and barf and cry and need to feed ALL the time and cry and cry and cry, just really bugs me. Don’t get me wrong, they can be cute, when they’re silent and don’t stare at you for long =P but seriosuly now, most of them hate me. I’d go next to one, and “WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!” they start throwing a tantrum! I must have a bad aura or something >.<
But this kid, Nicky, is different. He’s quiet yet really lively, he’s young yet so grown up, he’s damn naughty yet you don’t have to tell him to stop, and he’s Bruce’s son haha! Oh and the best part is- he loves me!! He follows me around the house, loves my bed, smiles whenever he sees me and gahhhh he’s just so cute! When he was a few months old I used to lay him under the curtains and he would spend hours just moving them around once in a while letting out a little giggle. I sound like such a hypocrite saying that kids don’t exactly tickle my fancy yet saying how much I adore this boy!
He’s the kind of kid who’ll know he’s doing something wrong, looks at you, says “no”, touches whatever he’s not ment to touch, and runs away laughing! He’s quite destructive, so obviously, I love throwing my mum’s cans and containers around with him- it’s quite amusing actually XD and once in a while he shows his voice off and squeeks really loudly for like two seconds and I do it back and he just glows! Or when I walk in and say “aw nick” and he ignores me and I say “oi! Kid!” and he looks and smiles. Even though he’s only a year old, he’d fall and smack his head against something, get up, and keep walking- no pain man! See what I mean by different? He understands everything, he’s has quite the sarcastic attitude and he looks at you with those HUGE blue eyes and you just can’t help but think how amazing God is!
He’s my uncle’s first child, a total God send. You see, Rita had a miscarrage before nicky came along, an unprotected x-ray at the start of her pregnancy and both of them aren’t exactly in their 20s, so risks are really high. Bruce is quite the spiritual guy, composing Christian songs and all. He was the one to take me to mass until I was eleven and stuff. Anyways, with all his madness and cars and bikes and wine lol, he’d give the world up for his child, they both would!
I can’t believe that he’s already a year old! The pregnancy seemed like forever out of fear of something going wrong and even the whole idea of waiting for my only first cousin lol. Point is, I just really love that kid, not only cos he’s my uncle’s son, but cos I really see God through him once all other babies and I don’t exactly click =P happy birthday nick, love you kid! =D