isle of mtv

Hello once again..
So last ight was isle of mtv.. ha. Ok we arrived at like 5 and were right at the fron to run in like a group of losers and it reminded me of soul survivor =D *ahhhh* And the kooks were doing their soundcheck and I was dreaming about us perhaps soundchecking on a big stage like that to thousands of Christians.. But yes, when we did run to the front we didnt exactly get to the front but with everyone pushing we got pretty damn close. Like forth row or something. Mike was hilarious, he brought cherry plums and cards and we all had water and steffy had wet her hair before but yes, we were insane. And then these three guys cam out of nowhere just literally shoving people out of the way and if any of us told them something (including me) they'd have a totally maleducated reply, for example spitting a huge bila at my foot which lucky I managed to dodge.. stupid animalistic losers. But nevermind, pray for them.. Other then loads of sweat and hair and absolutely disgusting people around us, yes we had fun. I mean, what was that lady gaga!? Maaaaa music these days, so disturbing. "I wanna take a ride on the disco stick" YUK!! Anyways, we laughed at the way she expected everyone to love her when like no one knew her songs =\ But anyways..
Then.. ONE REPUBLIC *mellltttttttt*
Wow, that was awesome! It was his birthday and I started 'singing' (more like screaming) happy birthday and then we all did and all the "front people" ended up but he ignored us =P I could literally see the shine in his amazing blue eyes.. wow. Haha it's like I never saw a hot singer live before- NOT!! I mean look at sam parker *mega melt = puddle of rache on floor causing people to slip* ahhhh I just CAN'T wait for soul survivor any longer!! And after melting at one rebublic a fight started (including the camera guy that was filming andrew's face >.<) so mike, chanelle, andrew and I tried to avoid it and went to find most of our group all the way back near the control tower. But some loser started a fight with lanfranco cos he "pushed" his girlfriend. God, what savages! I mean, you're moving against the current and obviously you're going to move people slightly. But nooo miss princess gets her big boyfriend to hit mike =\ luckily the people around us and his girlfriend ended up pulling him back. But I just get why we have to be so bloody aggressive! Anyways, pray for them too =P
We went to burger king and paul met us and then people atrted to come and I went back with cathy danelle and kelly to watch the kooks =D we met the whole group and really laughed =) Then just before n.e.r.d. gerry and vicky got hungry so we went back to burger king. When we returned n.e.r.d. were still playing and I met neil (guy from work, thought he was gerry taking a photo of me from behind so I posed XD and then realised- what a loser =P !) And then we had to walk to msida church to get a lift with gerry's sister haha how hilarious. Gerry got the key stuck in the car booth and anyway vicky and I were praying and it came out and we got home safely ^^
All in all it was a good night I guess, confusing but fun. I only missed enrique when we went to burger king the first time, but I wasn't there for him in the least, so I didn't really mind. Yes that's my isle of mtv update. The photos will be facebooked soon but not for now cos I'm off to blue bar and then back home for a meeting at hanks.
Keep praying for all these people for inner peace guys, they're so tied up in anger =| God bless you all =)

ciao ciao italia.. =(

Uff what a night =\ we lost, we're going home.. ciao ciao italia =(
Oh well, all in all, not a good day at work XD tables booked and confused and stupid italian men not wanting to get up from a table that was booked after they didn't book.. maaa! Anyways, all was sorted out. And after spending half time and another half hour after in the kitchen wiping cutlery I went back out and tried to keep my eyes on one of the 9 tvs and 2 big screens at hanks >.< And well, when penalties were up.. I was not quiet XD I actually was shouting at one of the supervisors and basically telling him to GO AWAY AND GET A LIFE AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!! Yeah, and I wasn't the only one >_O We got to use a foghorn when we scored and saved but some others used it when we lost, and I looked like an emo >.< I seriously plonked myself on the bar and stayed all depressed with javier (the bar man =P) and we both actually considered crying together- which made me laugh haha.
Oh well, life goes on, Jesus still defeated the devil so that's the only real win I need =D
Tine's arrived safely in france by the way, please pray for her, her ears are killing her =| Ahhh what an amazing experience =)
Ok I think that I shall go and have my breakfast, coffee or water lool, cos I don't like eating in the morning. So here's my good bye..
BYE ITALY I STILL LOVE YOU AND YOU'RE STILL CHAMPIONS OF THE WORLD =D GLEEEE *funny, cos this would never effect them XD*

there's nothing better =)

Hello!!
So I'm sitting here, alone at home, in a bikini, eating half a bowl of fruit and fibre and listening to planet shakers really loud XD yeahhhh feels like summer ^^
Ok the alone is due to the fact that my family ran off to a sandy beach early in the morning. Thankfully I slept through the whole confusion but tine (who slept here last night) got to experience my sister and mum panicing and my dad completely oblivious to them and just impressed at how much women can make a big deal out of things XD so they left like 10 mins before I woke up (that was like 9am so they were out pretty damn early) and won't be back till late I guess, but I'll be at work. The bikini part is kind of weird. I don't really know what happened but I had to send a message and I had just put on my bikini and once I'm alone I was like, "no one's here so I'm fine" and remained on the pc XD Half a bowl of fruit and fibre, hmmmm. See for around 3 months a bowl of fruit of fibre was like my source of energy, and when I stock up on a certain something, I get kinda sick of it. But I really felt like cereal and it was either fruit and fibre or weetos (who on earth chooses cereal in this house?!) so I chose the tastier one hehe. And half, because there only was enough for half a bowl >.< So my plan of action is to, eventually, buy my own cereal XD and I'm eating it pretty slowly so it's becoming soggy XD and I'm using a teaspoon cos I used it for coffee earlier on and didn't feel like getting another spoon out *LAZY- most deffinately a symptom of summerness =P* Now, the loud planet shakers is just fun XD I've been listening to them since thursday lool, I remembered how full of goodness their songs are. And just as one of the songs says, "there's nothng better".
There is NOTHING better.
Jesus loves me and He's got me covered and I have my health (most of it haha) and I have my family and friends =D What on earth could be better? Really? I have everything that I need and wooooo this summer is going to ROCK!!
There's so so much to say about the last two days but nothing really important. Let's just say that friday was fun and the y4j meeting last night was amazing!! I mean, I GOT TO WATCH LORD OF THE RINGS AT Y4J lool and when they stopped it (cos it was just a small piece) I shouted out "NO!!" and then everyone laughed and I felt embarrassed XD ahhhh life is good life is good..
Say it, come on- life IS good!
When you're in pain, alone, upset, hurt, angry, happy, sad, joyful, excited, estatic, anything- even just emotionless- say it and mean it.. LIFE IS GOOOOOOOD =D
Oh and the picture is me on friday with nicola's dress, I stole it XD and I like it haha I shall try and purchase one (preferably black but the whiteness is cute haha)
And now I shall love you all and leave one.
And remember, there's nothing better then having Jesus *gleeeeeeeeee* =D

*SUMMER*

Hello world once again =)
Ok so my summer has officially started =D
After school I caught the bus to spain (barakudas in xemxija) and spent an afternoon with a few of my lovelies and really enjoyed it. Oh and LOL amy and I had a green chicken burger >.< GREEEEEEEN!!!! Bleh =P
We took a couple of photos of bett and I. The idea was to get the contrasting blondeness with my black.. Didn't really work out but here's kinda what it looked like:


Oh and I got slightly burned which, funnily enough, I'm happy with. See, usually I run away from the sun or never have the patience to sunbath. But today I wanted to relax so I lay down on my black towel and soaked it all up =) and read my bible haha.
Then bett amy and I caught a 652 (I think) and in just outside mediterraneo we hear a big *pfffffffffffffffff* and the bus driver pulled over and went to check his tyer XD how oh so silly.
Oh and this morning whilst I was walking to the bus stop I realised that I'm being myself again =) and I said *to myself in my head* "I missed me" and suddenly this white peuguot just about RAN ME OVER!! And I was like "ahh!! I'd miss me more if I were dead" and giggled aloud to myself X)
I'm off to meet drea, mike and ivan and all the rest who end up coming down after intercession team and playing basket ball (rob's crazy idea) to watch the match and chill ^^
God bless you all!!
I'm praying gleeeeee

Hello world =)

I'm about to get some shut eye to get some good sleep before my last exam *histroy of art* and then start off my summer =D
So I really don't have much to say.. It was a , well, different weekend (haha what a way to put it >.< silly me) and I've learned a couple of things.
Oh and on friday I got my nails done with my darlings (amy and vicky) for free ^^ so that was great hehe.
I'm clueless and tired cos I spent a whole day doing my art project and my head is spinning from all the paint that I inhaled =P
Good night my fellow aliens, God bless you and talk to you again.. IN SUMMER =D

origami?

Hello world =)
So I'm on the phone with rob at the moment I just told him about my day, and whilst his singing to me haha, I decided to blog =D
Ok so this morning my mum came to wake me up at 7am so then by half seven I'd be at the gym but I told my mum that I couldn't go cos I said that had a headache but in actual fact I had to go to mina but I couldn't think in the morning XD
So I went to mina at like 8:30am and we tried to study but failed and ended up doing origami instead XD for those of you who, like me this morning, don't know what origami is, it is the art of folding paper. Quite hard actually =\ But we've realised that I have a new found talent lool or maybe not but I managed to create most of a swan (obviously with the help of mina) and then mina made a helmet, a boat and a something (forgot what it's called) it's the small cricket thing in mulan >.<
And then we went to michela after quite a funny phonecall with her, it went something like this:
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING AT ROMINA'S HOUSE? she has to study rache!! wait- you have engineering drawing AAAHHHHH!"
Haha, crazy girl =)
So now I'm home and adjusting my brain and have reached a verdict..
Fail: engineering drawing AND physics = do second year at naxxar and change e/d to religion and physics to biology.
Fail: physics = do resit and pass and do second jear at junior collage and change e/d to religion and physics to biology.
Yeah, simple decision but hard to make cos even though we don't do anything and it sucks- I love my school- it's insane and I got used to it.
See, I usually keave my studying for the last week bla bla even though I would try and try to study before but this year I did nothing all year round and I've been really distracted with everything. So, yeah, wasted a year but it's ok; Jesus loves me =)
After tomorrow I have a week to study systems, HOA and do my art project- should be passable.
And back to origami, the few papers we used were all crushed and crimpled cos we tried to make jumping frogs and sea horses and elephants and fish but we didn't manage. But that's how life is. We try and try again but it's just not right, so we move on. And when the next thing doesn't work out it doesn't matter- keep going; stay strong! So I am that little, frail piece of paper and God is making all these origamis out of me until He finds the one that suits me perfectly =D what a genious ^^
God bless you all and keep praying!!
(By the way, the picture is the actual swan we, through pain blood and sweat (lol yeah right), produced XD yeaaah!!! Origami pros in the making woohooo!!)

I'm back =)

Before any of you accuse me for being a liar- I AM SORRY!! (once again) !!
I was going to start blogging once again after my exams, but I need to now. So just to let you all know, I have a physics resit in summer- most deffinatly and in the last month I've changed my mind so many times about what I want to do with my future.. Now I know and I'm sorted and my plans are simple, change engineering drawing to religion and physics (when I pass the resit) to biology and in two years time leave malta to go and study psycology in scotland with rob and sean =) tadaaaa
In the mean time, I'm restarting life.. Renewing my vows, getting my priorities straight, sorting out my room (ouch!!) and start saving up for accomodation at the university (and not for a car).
So, in 63 days I'll be in the first big meeting in soul survivor with my Jesus buddies and all the amazing SS leaders, and ours too hehe =D and this time in 11 days I'll probably be dressing up to go out to celebrate the end of school and studying (until the results come out and I'll have to start bio from scratch and physics for my damn resit.. yes, I'm annoyed about that =P)
Ok at the moment my emotions are really messed up, I'm very upset, but really hiding it, things aren't sinking in well. I'm in one of my screwed up moods (those of you who really know me well know exactly how messed up they really are). I can't study at the moment cos my brain feels like it's going to explode once I've been thinking so much. Ok I'm stalling, I'm not with duncan anymore sooooo.. you know, not in a very good state. Ahhh this is a weird post. I'm not really thinking about what I'm typing and I guess no one will even bother to check my blog once I've lost so much contact (except mina who has magical powers when it comes to blogs ;) haha) so it's going to be kept silent and the next time I post I'll put it up on my nic on msn to reveal to the world that I really am back.
See, all good things come to an end. Stupid vodafone advert once said not to cry because it's over but to smile because it happened, and that's what I'm doing. Listening to some amazing songs to help me get back on track, feeding myself with amazing words to soothe my heart and once again, another patch is being sewn on to it (hence the picture).
I've been broken so many times, and even though a heart break feels the same, it never really does. In a biological similie, a broken heart is like a phylum and each time it get's broken, it's like a different species from that phylum. Probably doesn't make sense, but it does to me. It's like a flower but each one is different though it's still a flower. I'm saying lots of crap. But my point is, God is here, holding me, healing me.
Here's something comforting to anyone who's feeling down at the moment..
"The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" Psalms 34:18
"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise" Psalms 51:17
I think I shall go and try to continue some philosophy now. God bless you all..
"Lord you will protect and comfort this heart" - and that's exactly what He's doing =)
Keep praying!!