a whole year ♥

Hello world =)

It's 7:50am and I'm sitting in dan's room, completely hungover XD Ahh the consequences of not drinking all summer and then drinking ALMOST A PITCHER =O I've become a lightweight. Funny, a year ago I used to drink like a parched horse XD But it is not of this matter that I'm blogging..

Dan and I are officially one year ^^ Which means that a year ago was my last shift at hanks, meaning that 52 weeks ago him, beppe and kati came to visit me at work and I dedicated "I kissed a girl" to "KETRINI", meaning that 365 days ago dan kissed me, asked me out, and almost got me fired on my last day. How sweet =P

In all honesty, this year was so strange, so different. I can't believe it's passed already, yet so much happened it makes sense. And from begging kati to make sure he doesn't ask me out so that I won't end up in a relationship, I'm sitting here looking back on the last 375 days and remembering that feeling of utter excitement during the first ten days of "pre-us", when there were the shy and risky moments that come with the start of something new. I remember every time we met, practically everything we talked about and that feeling of euphoria which would erupt every time I thought of him. Now, I still feel it, but stronger, changed- I feel safe. I am loved =D and I love him, incredibly =)

Through the ups and the downs I can't describe how happy I am that beppe got me interested and that kati told him to ask me out not even ten minutes after I asked her to make sure he doesn't XD Clearly the best decision I've made in my life =)

So that's about it.. I'm off to wake him up, maybe play some playstation 3, go shopping for cereal and ice cream and spent the day at a flat pigging out whilst watching dvds/playing ps3 =D

beauty?

I'm sitting in the living room on this stupid laptop and my dad is watching bbcprime. One of those 2 minute shows about fashion or something was on and the final line was "beauty is only skin deep".

Is that true?

How many people are considered beautiful, yet how many people are truly beautiful? Doesn't the soul count? Yes, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but what really does make a person beautiful? Is it the soft, supple neck and full lips of a woman? The profound jaw line and sparkling, almond-shaped eyes of a man? What of body shape; why is it that most girls think that fat is gruesome, yet guys think it's sexy to be able to grab something? And the girls who love their love handles and the guys who think that girls who look like twigs are like goddesses? Light, dark, curvy, slim; they all evoke an attractive sensations when said, but are we all that interested when we see something out of place on someone else's body? Would it stop us from loving them the way that they should be loved?

Turning onto love- what about the defects lovers always fail to notice, or the defects that they grow to love? The words, "I love your .." comes out often, but what if ".." changes? Is the other still as beautiful? What of love that ages; what does age do to beauty? Does it steal it away, or does it enhance it? Does our perception of beauty mature as we do?

How about plastic surgery- is someone who has made themself beautiful truly beautiful? Is it right to consider them to be a beautiful looking person if that's not who they really are? Isn't altering your looks considered lying to the world? In that case, how can dishonesty be considered beautiful?

What about people who are considered plain or perhaps even ugly, yet have the most heart warming personalities- aren't they beautiful too? And the stunning people who walk through the streets turning eyes wherever they go, yet have lethal venom running through their veins and will not hesitate to strike at someone for any apparent reason- are those people still considered beautiful?

Really, all I can ask myself is, what is beauty?

Are we all beautiful in our own different ways? Or are we something else leaving the term "beautiful" for those people who are considered to be "perfect"?

.. I wonder.

camping.. le ta, hazin!

Hello world =)

So.. camping. Fail.

It kinda like reaaaaaaally sucked =/ and the story goes like this..

Wednesday morning, dan's mum took herself, him and I to price choppers for a mahusive shopping spree that went over €500 =O yeah but dan and mine was like 60 =P It was hilarious I must say, dan and I are such losers XD Then we went to his house, to mine, to scan (to get my camera back WITHOUT the usb ports and my memory card- lying assholes), back to my house, and back to dan's. Started packing at seven, left his house, went to kristina's and by like half ten walked to paceville. Had a relaaaaaxed evening and walked back to dan's house by 1am. We slept at like 2am, woke up at 7am and got all excited, showered, I blogged, and weeeeeee left to pass by my house and then go to selmun. Dan and I had an hour of literally LOL and then jean, emma and kikka came. by 12am, a wasp flew UP my shorts leaving me screaching in my underwear whilst an old couple passed by (I swear it's true XD) and one conveniently landed on my leg and felt the need to stong me out of NOTHING.. Thus, I am now scared of wasps- shitless!

Oh, and the heat. It was horrible and sticky and blehh and I wanted to DIE. It rained and I was so excited but yeah, my tent, it isn't waterproof if there's WIND and rain =/ And then there was more heat and more wasps and the sea was lovely but I hate stripping down and actually getting into the water so it took forever and then it was all dirty and guess what, more bloody wasps!! Oh and then my newly fixed camera broke. How delightful.

By sunday, I couldn't take it. I poured buckets and the whole campsite turned into a lump of clayish mud. It was disastrous. Dan and I spent almost two hours trying to pack everything away cos of the giant mess and we went through the campsite clearing up and by 2:30pm we were at my house.

Thank God.

We spent around two hours cleaning everything from the mud that had clayed itself all over anything in it's way, showered, ate and went to dan's house all squeaky clean and sunburnt =)

All in all; camping- fail.

Though it was mighty horrible, there were the few things that were pretty brilliant. Like "kisra hobz" and mike dan and I in a tent that's barely big enough for me, dan wacking the shit out of like a billion wasps and dan and I spending forever in the water leading to me losing and thankfully finding my favourite necklace in the world.. Basically the stupid little things that happen here there and everywhere =)

Dan and I have remained living on the little food we took up with us, meaning lots of fake crunchy nut, couscous, woody we left at his house (douches) and marshmallows XD .. Imbasta me and my healthy diet ahh XD

Now our resources are coming to an end lol so well, no more camping for us =P

So that's it, the camping post =P I'm off to rape my room haha..

pre, camping =D haha!

Hello world =D

Ok so, sadness, I'm jobless XD The place was sold and we were told yesterday- so was the manager.. So yes, dan and I are officially unemployed =P Luckily it's the end of summer so.. But still. Oh well, good times..

But this blog is for WAAAAY more important matters =P It's 8:30am and dan and I are almost ready to go on an adventure into the wilderness in selmun for camping#2 *glee*. I didn't have time to blog yesterday cos we were running around in preparation. So when I come back I will post a camping blog, I plomise =P
I honestly CAN'T wait, shall be grandesque..
Haha the photo is from the facebook event page, beautiful =')

So, until we meet again =D

work work work

Hello world.

Haha, between yesterday and today I'm spending around 25 hours at work.. =O
Well, yesterday my shift was from 9am to 5pm and dan's from 5pm to 12am. Once he had slept at my house the night before, he came with me at nine, spent all my shift there and so I spent his shift with him.. Mighty funny, we went a bit mental XD .. So that was the first 15hours. This morning, I was here before 9am to open and my shift ends at 7pm =| ahh, the joys of cash XD But I must say, I absolutely love my job so really, I'm not complaining, it's just funny >.< But I hate italians. No offense to mina or zoe or anyone, but I HATE the italians.. I also finished this blog, went to post it and a giant bloody paragraph got deleted so screw it I'm not going to bother writing all of it all over again. But basically it was a sotry of these two shit head italians who came here BEFORE 10am and were full of bull because well, I've come to a conclusion that they don't blood red, but brown- go figure XD so yes, I really REALLY dislike them, or like 99.9% of them that I've met this summer, just in case I met like 1 that was half decent XD

Something absolutely GRAND came my way yesterday.. a car =D But I've got to wait till the mother comes back from abroad and I come back from camping to go check it out and hopefully buy it =D So at the moment I'm just praying with my fingers crossed for that to work out haha =D

Ahh camping =D I'm so excited =D I made the most hilarious list ever yesterday through boredom XD and bought wet wipes from next door =D

I found the picture above and realised that those three things are so closely linked at the moment it struck me slightly..

Life
Work
Home

My life, which is what- Jesus, friends and obviously dan. Work, for my life, with dan. Home, were I go after my life takes priority and work is done, and with dan, hoping to eventually have a home with dan. Hmm, all so closely knitted, like a plait.. =O life is so weird. The way everything is so messed up and unfolds out of nothing through everything.. Sometimes I feel like it's just passing me by- and I'm not even 18 =/ wow. Scary stuff.

Mehh, the sun just came out =( how rude. I was so happy looking at the grey sky and walking here in the rain ♥ =) but alas, it is september after all.. 8th september- happy birthday bettina my bubble =D *pop*

There are some crazy asians shouting in here =/ odd XD

Ahh these last few days have been brilliant. Haha living with dan and george, the two most demanding males in my life =P They both have this obsession with trying to keep me up all night. From snoring to moaning to miaoing to biting to rolling away and rolling onto me, not to mention that george is fluffy so yeah that in your mouth is mighty disturbing and dan is loud.. But I love them immensely, like a crazy woman, so yeah, I'd never give that up for anything XD I'm going to miss those nights, hopefully george will remain raping my bed over the next two nights, and then camping for 6 days and 5 nights =D *HAPPINESS* =D

Ahhh I want to blog about camping and gleeeeness, but I shall wait and blog about that iether later or tomorrow cos well, I'm tired XD

So I'm off, God bless =)

having the time of my life =D

Hello world

Ok so, dan's back =D ahhhhhh excitement =D

I swear I've been so giddy it's hilarious, the smile hasn't left my face =D

All I can say is wow. I'm having the time of my life, I missed him so so much and now he's back.
We're sitting in the comfort of ACed cyber surf, I'm on pc 8 with a diet coke by my side.. brilliant customer ahh =D
Dan's dancing to the music, which looks hilarious from in here, but mighty odd from outside XD

You may be wondering what the random box of crunchy nut is doing in the middle of my blog..
Well..
Friday night, around 3am, so really saturday morning, dan left to go home and return at 6am XD Basically I was hungry, so I decided; CRUNCHY NUT FOR THE WIN =D .. So I fill a lovely round, blue and yellow cereal bowl with crunchy nut and pour skimmed milk all over it, just like the adverts you know. I dip my spoon into it, bring up a lovely heaped amount into my mouth and ahhhhhhhhhh, crunchy nut ♥ A couple of spoons later, just before I pressed "send" after replying to a message dan had just sent me, I feel something crawl up the sole of my foot. Immediate thought- COCKROACH!! I ran upstairs, stayed still for a couple of seconds and realised how cowardly I was acting. So I creeped back down to rescue my phone from the lurking beast only to find it propped up in the center my cereal bowl XD I burst out laughing, and took the whole bowl upstairs.. Crazily enough, my phone is now working well except for the fact that my messages now start coming in at 484 XD So I need to hunt for my unread texts >_O Though at the begining, my buttons were confusing themselves for each other XD

So that's the story of my phone XD

Now I shall love you and leave you =D

5..4..3..2..1..0 .. =D

Hello world

I'm sitting at work.. AHHHH THE STRESS!! I'm dying really. I swear it's hilarious, my hands aren't even staying still XD
We've both been counting the hours, dan's even been sending me messages on the hour telling me how much longer left, as if I'm not counting myself!! Haha.. Leading me to look for the count down timer on my phone, which apparently doesn't exist =/ So sadly I can't be the little obsessed girl that I am.. Although, I once had a countdown timer on the internet and also on facebook, but somehow, I can't seem to find any.. And I reaaaaally don't feel like searching XD
I shall I soon resort to reading, and perhaps, just perhaps, will actually log onto farmville XD Although I'd rather not because I really can't understand the whole fuss and it seems really pathetic to be honest.. But hey, desperation calls =P Now we see the extremes that the stress will drive me to =P
Ahh I'm in such a good mood! Even though his mother is being completely unreasonable, I'm still gleaming =D I swear, I feel so relieved, so excited, ahhh I'm so fidgety!
Ok I found one.. Ahh I think I'm going to spend the rest of my shift glued to it!! XD

Tooooo funny ahh

Ok lool I actually opened farmville.. And it has music.. Happy farm music XD .. LOL WHAT??! Bahahahaa hilarious. I don't know how to mute it, so like, I closed it XD

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH =D
Sorry, I'm just so excited =D =D God I'm a loser; but I love it =D
It's 7pm.. smileeeeeeeee =D

So the picture I found really applies lol, I got here at 4 and finish at 9- 5 hours.. Count down from 5 to nothing =D

HOW SWEET!! So I went to check if the water dispenser is working, and a teeny weeny gecko fell on me ^^ how adorable!!

So I'm sitting sipping diet coke and my heart is racing lool. I just realised that I've only read half a page since I got here XD So I shall go and read, well, try to. Then I shall say my overly excited good byes =P

Ahh like 25 minutes left so I'm going to count the float and wit wait wait =D

Good night world.. And what a good night it is =D

mess =O

Hello world =)

Today is a good day ^^

I'm currently sitting on my mattress, which is on the floor XD I'm trying to clear my room and well, believe me, I'm failing- EPICALLY! .. And I'm blogging from home =D

Ok so I have to wait an extra hour for dan lool, I have work till 9pm =O So well, once he arrives in malta at 5 and once it's just on the ferry it means he'll be home by 5:30 so the 3.5 hours spent knowing he's up the road is going to be so infuriating AHHHH!! But if he comes down to work, well, I won't be able to work XD

So, my room is a disaster!! Like BOOM haha.. And I really fancy the picture I found so like, yey!

Today shall be a grand day. A lot of anticipation, but awesome =)

So I really think I should just try to clear up a bit more =P

I shall update you on another blog when I'm mighty bored at work counting down the SECONDS till my shift ends =D

tomorrow..

Hello world.

It's thursday, which means the week has almost come to an end. Almost, not completely, but almost. Finally.

Tomorrow.

It's getting harder and harder to remain looking happy and last night in paceville I felt so empty, as if nothing mattered anymore. My whole body ached, my head was throbbing and my chest felt so heavy. I miss him so so much, it's unbelievable.

He bought an hour on the internet, 8 fucking euro.. Incredible.

Twenty minutes of it was lost because my frikking internet isn't working properly, so facebook won't respond, nor will msn and this meebo or whatever it is wasn't bloody loading. So you can imagine the state I was in. Actually, I don't think anyone can.

After that fail first twenty minutes, through the tears and frustration, he logged out and I managed to get the laptop to work (that's where I'm blogging from at the moment) and he went back and looged back on.

The next fourty minutes was the best time I've had since I called him.

So in the last week, I've been truly happy for less than an hour.. There's been fun and all.. But still, nothing compares.

Oh and kai came over when I was lonely and got me.. SOUL SURVIVOR MILKY BUTTONS!! =D fine, that did make me happy haha! The best present I've ever received ^^ and they have these adorable eyes on the packet =D So much much MUCH love to kai ^^

But through everything, I can't believe that in 24 hours I'll be on a bus home with dan =) Finally!!

Off to eat and go to d-group.

.. Till tomorrow, God bless.

cake ^^

Hello world =)

There's an absolutely delicious smell wafting through my house; I'm baking ^^
It's christa's birthday today - happy birthday christa =D - and well, if she reads this then oops, spoiler, but I baked her a cake for her birthday =) *glee* hopefully she'll sleep here tonight too, but in case we'll cut it tomorrow.

I just brought it out, looks mighty beautiful ^^ chocolate chip rainbow cake ftw XD

I searched for rainbow cakes on the net.. I feel so untalented XD .. Honestly, take a look:





.. I must try XD

I planned on waking up early and going to the gym, but I woke up feeling hungover, which is very strange once I sat drinking diet coke at mc donalds till 12 =/ hmm, odd. So I woke up at nine, watered the plants, ate a nectarine, made a cake and left it to bake whilst washing my hair. Now I plan on reading slightly, touching up my mum's painting, she decided she wants it "arranged", go to the gym *die a little*, come home and arrange the place for tonight and tomorrow.
A few girls are sleeping over tonight, gay little girl thingy, and theeeeeeen, tomorrow just chill and the guys will come over bla bla relaxed. Then pv to celebrate kris' freedom and christa's birthday =D

Sounds like a plan haha, I love being an orphan and having a house to take care of. I just can't wait till dan gets back so we can "live together" once again ^^

So, happy tuesday 1st september 2009 =)