I'm back =)

Before any of you accuse me for being a liar- I AM SORRY!! (once again) !!
I was going to start blogging once again after my exams, but I need to now. So just to let you all know, I have a physics resit in summer- most deffinatly and in the last month I've changed my mind so many times about what I want to do with my future.. Now I know and I'm sorted and my plans are simple, change engineering drawing to religion and physics (when I pass the resit) to biology and in two years time leave malta to go and study psycology in scotland with rob and sean =) tadaaaa
In the mean time, I'm restarting life.. Renewing my vows, getting my priorities straight, sorting out my room (ouch!!) and start saving up for accomodation at the university (and not for a car).
So, in 63 days I'll be in the first big meeting in soul survivor with my Jesus buddies and all the amazing SS leaders, and ours too hehe =D and this time in 11 days I'll probably be dressing up to go out to celebrate the end of school and studying (until the results come out and I'll have to start bio from scratch and physics for my damn resit.. yes, I'm annoyed about that =P)
Ok at the moment my emotions are really messed up, I'm very upset, but really hiding it, things aren't sinking in well. I'm in one of my screwed up moods (those of you who really know me well know exactly how messed up they really are). I can't study at the moment cos my brain feels like it's going to explode once I've been thinking so much. Ok I'm stalling, I'm not with duncan anymore sooooo.. you know, not in a very good state. Ahhh this is a weird post. I'm not really thinking about what I'm typing and I guess no one will even bother to check my blog once I've lost so much contact (except mina who has magical powers when it comes to blogs ;) haha) so it's going to be kept silent and the next time I post I'll put it up on my nic on msn to reveal to the world that I really am back.
See, all good things come to an end. Stupid vodafone advert once said not to cry because it's over but to smile because it happened, and that's what I'm doing. Listening to some amazing songs to help me get back on track, feeding myself with amazing words to soothe my heart and once again, another patch is being sewn on to it (hence the picture).
I've been broken so many times, and even though a heart break feels the same, it never really does. In a biological similie, a broken heart is like a phylum and each time it get's broken, it's like a different species from that phylum. Probably doesn't make sense, but it does to me. It's like a flower but each one is different though it's still a flower. I'm saying lots of crap. But my point is, God is here, holding me, healing me.
Here's something comforting to anyone who's feeling down at the moment..
"The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" Psalms 34:18
"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise" Psalms 51:17
I think I shall go and try to continue some philosophy now. God bless you all..
"Lord you will protect and comfort this heart" - and that's exactly what He's doing =)
Keep praying!!