eldest

Hello world.

Today's a good day, considering everything =) my family left for germany/austria/italy/somewhere there XD So that's grand, too bad dan's not here to share the liberty with me, well not till friday night anyways.

I called him today, it was.. odd. I had so so sooo many things I wanted to say but when I heard his voice I just blanked and died a little on the inside. So I stood by the phone in the middle of cyber surf with tears rolling down my cheeks like a complete loser XD we had like three minutes, the best 2euro spent in my life.. Almost half way through. I can't believe how much I miss him, I'm honestly not functioning well without him.

Anyways, finished eragon, I'm now a quarter into eldest- awesome book. It's just so damn annoying cos people keep coming in and ahh the book is too good to keep stopping.. So I closed it XD bahaha silly me =P
Is it just me, or is reading a book a second time make you feel for the characters more? Especially knowing what the future brings them.
I wish I had a dragon. Or that george somehow sprouts wings. Fine, I won't be able to ride him, but still it would be nothing short of wicked. Now if he could turn into a giant fluffy cat-dragon, that would be like GAH AWESOME! But alas, 'tis only a dream *sigh*

The place seems to be quietening down.. I shall attempt to read some more =D

So long ^^

eragon

Hello world,

Quick quicky.. finishing eragon once again- brilliant =D
Missing dan like a crazy lady but yeah, he's alive so I don't feel as bad =P can't wait till next friday =D till then, sadness =(

But I shall drown myself in the inheritance trilogy once again and then be very sad that I have to wait for the fourth book to come out XD

God bless y'all; good night.

sadness

Hello world.

Today is a sad day =(

• I'm sick
• 6 hours of work, 2 hours of HOA private lessons, 5 hours of work
• dan left for a week in clubmed
  

*sadness*

I feel so so weak, both physically and emotionally. I just want to put my head down and sleep =( Which I could not do last night =/ I was exhausted, but I spent the whole night dozing off slightly here and there. I just feel so empty, dead, like a puppet really. I can't believe how dan leaving for a week has depressed me so much.. I guess the sickness doesn't help. Honestly, sick or not, I'd be just as down. I love him so much. Gahh I sound so lovedrunk, but it's true =/

So through all of this, I'm sitting at the front desk reading eragon once again and blogging etc. So I'll be back to my book now..

I just don't know how I'm going to cope for the next week =(

blehh money

Hello world.

So, all the soul survivorers are back =P Heard waaaaaay too many stories at sean's suprise party last night, as in, making me waaaaay to sad =(
Apparently it was amazing.. Yeah, I know =P
God I wish I could have paked my bags and gone at the last second just like brooks and paula =( but alas, the funds, they're non existent =/

On the other hand, saving up for a car is a good reason to miss a six day holiday.. Or so I keep telling myself haha. Perhaps next year.. Unless God calls me somewhere else, or unless I reeeeeally need to save for africa.

Money.

I hate it.
Yet love it, crave it. Why is it so important?! Everything revolves around dirty cash. It's disgusting =/ We have to pay to do everything. Quite sad.
Blehh, filthy.

Ahh, cold water is cold =)

Tom and nigel came to visit =D I feel molto special.. Happy 20th birthday Nigel =D

Ahh tonight shall be good =D

I'm off to count the float =)

God bless y'all =)

rain down..

Hello world..

So, soul survivor time.. Missing it terribly =/ missing kristina terribly too.. I want to go back =(

As expected, it's disgustingly hot, sticky, raining (viva santa maria) and there's a douche warden giving people tickets right outside.. but it's raining =)

It's making me miss soul survivor more, but it's a little bit of "home" which I'm craving so badly. Home sick. That's what I really am.

And I've spent the last few hours cleaning XD and I have to go. continue this later =)

soul survivor.. less =(

Hello world.

So, believe it or not, it's the second time I'm blogging today, this time from dan's room.. Amazingly shiny key board.. IT'S AWESOME =D And the blue lights range from off, on, on-er (brighter =P)



So, this is a "sadness" post.. Soul Survivor tomorrow, and I'm not going to be there =(
For the last two years it's been the landmark which defines a year to me. Not a birthday, not Christmas, not new year's eve; Soul Survivor. By far the most incredible experience of my life, twice over. And this year, I'll be at work during the morning seminars and meeting on thursday and friday and the evening meeting and grande night at mr boogies or cafe uno or celluloid or underground or dreggs or just maybe even sitting around on a bench will be replaced for a saturday night shift.. sadness.
I know I should be thankful for having gone twice, for having one time paid for me and for having the opportunity to have gone more than once, but I can't explain how I'm truly feeling other than so disappointed and hollow.

I want to go back.

It's the place, the people, the seminars, the atmosphere.. the WORSHIP. The feeling of freedom that's so overwhelming you have no clue what to expect out of the Spirit and yourself. Nothing short of unity between God and His people.
Beautiful.
So deep, so cleansing. Literally a whole new world.

But honestly, the only thing I can really do is remember all the grand times last year and the year before brought.. My daily dose of milky buttons, milkshakes and diet coke.. The times we've qued for the shower. The diversity seen in all different types of people. Shopping. Meeting some seriously WACKO people such as the crazy Christian rapper, batman and robbin, Josh =D Not to mention the amazing speakers and singers- STARFIELD!! Having a huge crush on james hunter t-shirt man, getting interviewed by podcasts.. TENTS =D hehe hearing about and actually seeing slum survivor for the first time. The constant sight and smell of green and rain. The little lake and the ducks.. PENGUIN MAN, and the streaking guitar dude XD. Meeting kurt and jordan and reuniting with kurt last year. The pile ups, the crazy activities, the mud - THE WELLIES =D wow, the list is everlasting =|

But I'll shut up right about now..

God has a plan for all of us, Soul Survivor was not for me this year. It's ok, there are so many other times I can pack up and go in the future.. So I must keep smiling.. =) .. <-- There =P

Also, must keep praying for everyone up there, especially those flying to get there, may they all be safe. I really hope, actually, I know that everyone will come back with their own different experiences and ideas, but I just hope that everyone makes the very most out of it.. It truly is a life changing experience =)

That's all I guess..

God bless you all.. Missing you so very much, soul survivor.

=)

Hello world =)

Just a quick post really.. I think I'm managing to find myself a future =D sounds grand huh??
Well firstly, I'm engaged..


Kidding XD
Bahaha couldn't resist >.<

I just think I know what I want to do, and even though it's going to be hard.. oh well =)
I'll update on thursday.. But just to say that I've spotted my rainbow, off to find the pot of gold haha.. Gotta run =O

Byeeeeeeeee =)

God bless you!!

Hello world =)

So today something really incredible happened at work.. These two black girls came in and didn't have enough cash to use the internet and print so I basically helped them out and all I can say is wow. They both looked at me and told me "God bless you" with such sincerity, it was so touching ^^

It's just so impressive isn't it? How many times do we tell people "God bless you" other than just a mere "thanks", that is if we even do say thanks? Is it out of shame, fear of them not being christians, or does it just slip our mind? I think it's so great that some people are so alive and burning that it comes naturally for them to tell people "God bless you". And not out of habit, out of nothing other than their own free will.. Beautiful! =)

Just thought I should share that =)

Today on the whole was a very random day haha. I woke up four times before decided that, yes, it was the right time to get up XD I had one hell of weird dream and literally less than half an hour after I woke up, dan was at my house XD unplanned and three minutes notice bahaha! He slept at nigel last night and decided to invade my house when he woke up. We rented 'the alphabet killer' and 'wall-e' and basically spent the afternoon watching them and being losers ^^ Made a big ass burger for lunch.. I left it in the oven for longer than usual and *chomp* two bites in and the inside was still mushy XD greens made freak burgers XD so lunch was basically mutant burgers with a fried egg for dan and mushrooms for me haha. Yummehhhh =P .. And now, I'm at work.. bored =| Oh well, two hours left.. So I thiiiink..

I'm off to read teehee.

Good night =)

God bless you!!

killing time XD

Hello world =)

I'm at work.. I hate people =P haha
And I'm beading, well, trying to =P And basically It's quarter past one and I can truly say that beading can really help to pass the time XD Ahh, awesome stuff ^^ .. And I haven't even finished it yet XD When I do I will upload a picture teehee, I must say it is molto pretty ^^
Surely one of the best and most productive ways to kill time =)

So I shall love you and leave you to attend to the float haha.

♫ music ♥

Hello world.

So the last few days were the best ever, living with dan haha XD
So once my pc is aobsolutely hopeless, and I probably lost EVERYTHING I ever downloaded/uploaded/did and stored in my hard drive, I need to make a new music list hahaha.
The problem is the photos.. All MY photos, everything I've ever taken since like form 3 ='(

So I now have to re download everything I had, and my ipod barely helps.. But I also need to make molto play lists including the inevitable "party music" one haha.. So, the plan is to wright down songs that don't make me want to smash everything around me when are played XD and all the ones I actually like. So I'm going to be adding quite a few songs here at there haha.. Ahh, thanks aol radio =P .. http://player.play.it/player/aolPlayer.html?v=3.11.85&ur=1&us=1&id=748

use somebody - kings of leon
show me what I'm looking for - carolina liar
how do you sleep - jesse mccartney
right now - akon
halo - beyonce
waking up in vegas - katy perry
good girls go bad - cobra starship
dangerous - akon
don't trust me - 30h!3
knock you down - keri hilson
I know you want me - pitbull
love game - lady gaga
sugar - flo rida
new divide - linkin park
battle field - jordin sparks
my love - justin timberlake
I do not hook up - kelly clarkson
pocket of sunshine - natasha bedingfield
boom boom pow - black eyed peas
apologise - one republic
that's not my name - the ting tings
when love takes over - david guetta
never say never - the fray
poker face - lady gaga
I gotta feeling - black eyed peas
let it rock - kevin rudolf
miss independent - ne-yo
you belong with me - taylor swift
thanks for the memories - fall out boy
unfaithful - rihanna
please don't leave me - pink
viva la vida - coldplay
untouched - the veronicas
no surprise - daughtry
not meant to be - theory of a dead man
I'm yours - jason mraz
dead and gone - ti
what I've done - linkin park
right here - brandy
watcha say - jason dervlo
too little, too late - jojo
fallin' for you - colbie caillat
hush hush; hush hush - pussycat dolls
rehab - rihanna
evacuate the dancefloor - cascada
what about now - daughtry
down - jay sean
disturbia - rihanna
dollhouse - priscilla renea
love drunk - boys like girls
that's what you get - paramore