sick

Ment to finish exams today; note the 'ment' =( I'm really sick (again) and I couldn't go this morning. 102 fever and kinda a tummy bug and my eyes feel like they're going to fall out or as if I havn't blinked in months! Blehh I don't like this feeling; it sucks. oh well, screw the london art paper 2 exam, to hell with the twenty pounds and bring on summer, and something to get me well once and for all hehe

Made by God

This morning, i caught the bus, uwija nothing special. I was reading my book and listening to music. I looked up and out of the window and saw the sea and it looked like glass. It was so still and so peaceful. I started to think about all the times that I've seen amazing sunsets or sunrises or just beautiful views and stuff, and it dawned on me; what an awesome God! It's as if everything reflects His beauty and small things like that make me really appreciate all He's done for me. I'm just so glad that He went through everything for me =D

Not five star, but SIX!

I was thinking last night; we’re like travellers walking on a road. We’re dead tired and don’t have a place to live, so we spend our lives walking on and on until we reach the right place to stay. Now on the way there are many inns and guest-houses and stuff. Some people stop at the first place they see, some other’s wait to find somewhere more comfortable, but some others ignore all of them, despite their situation. We are the ones who ignore all the signs and bilboards saying ‘bed and breakfast’ and just keep walking by.
This is because life is all about waiting for the right thing to come around, and not taking a shot at something because it’s convinient for us. In the end, we reach an amazing hotel with everything we need for free. The hotel is Heaven and the price has been paid by Jesus! Not five star, but SIX! All for us. So hang in there, I know it’s really hard at times, but hey- it’s worth it =D

The kid that I adore

Ok so, a year ago today (16/05/06) my uncle’s partner, Rita, gave birth to the most gorgeous kid alive.. I’m serious =P Mela, I’m really NOT into children, it’s practically a known fact hehe. The way that they scream and cry and drool and cry and barf and cry and need to feed ALL the time and cry and cry and cry, just really bugs me. Don’t get me wrong, they can be cute, when they’re silent and don’t stare at you for long =P but seriosuly now, most of them hate me. I’d go next to one, and “WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!” they start throwing a tantrum! I must have a bad aura or something >.<
But this kid, Nicky, is different. He’s quiet yet really lively, he’s young yet so grown up, he’s damn naughty yet you don’t have to tell him to stop, and he’s Bruce’s son haha! Oh and the best part is- he loves me!! He follows me around the house, loves my bed, smiles whenever he sees me and gahhhh he’s just so cute! When he was a few months old I used to lay him under the curtains and he would spend hours just moving them around once in a while letting out a little giggle. I sound like such a hypocrite saying that kids don’t exactly tickle my fancy yet saying how much I adore this boy!
He’s the kind of kid who’ll know he’s doing something wrong, looks at you, says “no”, touches whatever he’s not ment to touch, and runs away laughing! He’s quite destructive, so obviously, I love throwing my mum’s cans and containers around with him- it’s quite amusing actually XD and once in a while he shows his voice off and squeeks really loudly for like two seconds and I do it back and he just glows! Or when I walk in and say “aw nick” and he ignores me and I say “oi! Kid!” and he looks and smiles. Even though he’s only a year old, he’d fall and smack his head against something, get up, and keep walking- no pain man! See what I mean by different? He understands everything, he’s has quite the sarcastic attitude and he looks at you with those HUGE blue eyes and you just can’t help but think how amazing God is!
He’s my uncle’s first child, a total God send. You see, Rita had a miscarrage before nicky came along, an unprotected x-ray at the start of her pregnancy and both of them aren’t exactly in their 20s, so risks are really high. Bruce is quite the spiritual guy, composing Christian songs and all. He was the one to take me to mass until I was eleven and stuff. Anyways, with all his madness and cars and bikes and wine lol, he’d give the world up for his child, they both would!
I can’t believe that he’s already a year old! The pregnancy seemed like forever out of fear of something going wrong and even the whole idea of waiting for my only first cousin lol. Point is, I just really love that kid, not only cos he’s my uncle’s son, but cos I really see God through him once all other babies and I don’t exactly click =P happy birthday nick, love you kid! =D

Temptation

Hey!
Ok so, I’ve been thinking, I’m quite the diet person right? I’m always desperatly trying to lose wieght. Now I’m following this diet thing, and even though it’s really quite fun, temptations are driving me crazy! It’s not like i’m new to dieting so it’s just really trying to make me eat for the first time, so I guess it’s just me hehe. Anyways, this kinda reminded me about life.. So, I open the cupboard and BAMM I see nutella! Ahhhh how amazing- no, I can’t have. Yesterday, my mum made little pies and I was seriously about to start drooling. And then there is coffee, and biscuits, and cake, and chocolate, and maltese sausage lol..
Point is- in life we really have to struggle to keep away from the bad things and keep praising God, we’re basically constantly fighting temptation, and the moment we think we’re used to obeying and abiding to God’s rules, satan tempts us and unfortunatly, many times, we fall. We really have to focus on God, and in this way- look at satan and say "in your face muahahahahaaaaa!" XD
Soo, just like in a diet ( =P ) we have to keep going,keep driving our will power forward and not give up..
Take care and God bless! =)

(And remember: don’t cheat on your diet cos you’re actually cheating yourself.. Don’t cheat on God cos He knows everything and you’re actually not cheating at all, you’re just looking like a fool hehe)

First post

Hey guys..

So, my blog has been saved in my favorites and never been used and I decided that it's about time to actually post something. He he, well this is it. All that's really going on in my life at the moment is just studying and exams.. pretty sad =( Uwija, I've been studying Maltese gas down this week in order to actually pass and not ruin my summer by missing out on Soul Survivor and having to sit for a resit and basically screw up 'the best summer of my life'. I'm going kinda crazy, trying to learn everything by heart and all and ahhhh it's coming out of my ears! che` stress!! I must be driving God insane, poor guy, all I'm doing is telling Him how much I need His help and to give me patience ha ha. Eh well, at least I'm always talking to Him (or drowning Him with my panic attacks and stress he he). Anyway, after the O's, I'll be updating very often so check it out =P

God bless you all!