"the grass is greener, the toilets are cleaner; this is Soul Survivor"

Hello world!!

Ok so I had a problem with being able to blog before, kinda like a blogging blockage? Not that my pc wasn't letting me, or I had nothing to blog about, but I would be staring at my monitor for ages just wishing I was blogging but I just couldn't. Does is make any sense to any one? Well, as odd as it may sound, it is honest to goodness what really happened =P

So, soul survivor was amazing (as expected). A total renewal all over again, as if my tank was being refilled with the Holy Spirit, wooo totally on fire for God =D I didn't keep my daily diary thing haha and I didn't go to all the talks and I didn't manage to do everything that I planned on doing but wow, from the moment we arrived it was awesome- even the coach ride wasn't too boring =O

On arriving at soul survivor and putting our stuff down and switching tents cos the zips were broken (teehee) I went to do my hour of aloneness running around but ended up giving miguel a guided tour and ended up venturing into the big top and be present for sam parker's sound check *melt!!* ahhh awesome, honestly! God's presence was so intense even with just the band/sound teem (plus mig and I haha) being there, just let myself worship for a couple of minutes and then ran away, oh and in the meantime getting a milkshake and giant milky buttons haha!

The week helped me to (get to know myself better together with people on a different level..) realise things, it was a total wake up call and just snapped me into reality. We met some amazing people, old and new which is really cool =) ahhh and we got to "explore" the place this year being as we were pretty far off from everything haha! I had my supply of things to live on (mecrocaine, islamoos, ventolin, diet coke and milky buttons >.<) so that was pretty cool having a stash in my bag/by my side all the time.

I ended up being totally shattered both emotionally and physically (no voice all week and my asthma was playing up and yeah, I was in pain =P) but in being so realised how beautiful it is. Somethings were hard to face up to and being myself I didn't manage to let go completely until thursday night/friday morning. But even though I was holding back everything was so amazing. Going there and knowing what was instore for me made it exciting in such a different way to last year and being there was just like finally exhaling after holding my breath for mintues, that kind of satisfactory release- that's probably the best way to describe it.

I didn't plan on explaining soul survivor and I'm not going to, but I do want to share something..

Coming back down to malta was hell for me, all over again. Just as going back up was so fulfilling, coming back here was like a dark grey cloud looming overhead. But I experienced something I didn't expect to when I was back here, y4j- in a different light. Not that it was different in any way, but being back into a community that, fine maybe wasn't as ready as the 11,000 people up in soul survivor, but was ready to worship the Lord gave me comfort and the same kind of "spiritual high" that I got in soul survivor, that was all that I needed after a week of being drowned in Jesusness =D

And as ben told me, this is the best part- the evangelising ^^ God's fire burns inside and, don't know abut you guys, but doesn't let me keep it in. The world should know about God and His love. I've been blessed with knowing the Lord, why should I be selfish and keep it to myself? I feel as if I need to run to every corner of the earth to tell of the Grace that has saved my soul, liften my sorrows and healed my pain- guys, He's saved us, don't you just feel like you'll explode if you don't tell the world the Jesus lives (hillsong rule hehe!) ??!

Ahhh it feels so good to be alive in His Spirit!!

Oh and seeing starfield live was incredbile too!! Talk about worship- wooohoo!

I'm still pretty damn confused about my future =\ to be 1000% honest, the only thing I can really see myself doing is evangelising and living to bring Jesus into the lives of so many people, but is that God's plan? I'm not sure, that's for me to eventually find out. Hopefully soon but all I can really do is pray..

So that's my update I'm guessing. I mean I could go on about nearly overdosing and how I could have died multiple times at soul survivor and back here in malta and have been on steroids and antibiotics and nebulisers, sprays, syrups ladida- but no, I'd rather not- I'm alive and that's what matters =D Then there was maxine's lime part which was grand I must admit even though I wasn't aloud to dance/exert myself out of risk of a heart attack but anyways XD and then, reef rythms.. Now that was good =)

Let's just say that it was more of a success than harmonic shake (last year's "concert"- is it?) us, together with cedarhouse and salt performed at the westin dragonara. Anyways, God totally led us through and everything, apparently, turned out amazingly well!!

Ahhhh life is goooood *eternal life is better*

So I think that I shall now go up and sleep because I must say I'm pretty tired after a very boring night at work whilst everyone was out having fun teehee =P

I'm so glad that I've finally blogged, fine, it's not a good blog at all, but since when does a relatively sick mind function at 2:21am after a night at hanks =P ? Once I've blogged now I'll get back into the routine, I know myself =P

Good night and God bless you all (expecially if you bothered to read this, kidding hehe!)

Oh oh, and happy birthday to romina and luisa =D

Soul Survivor, here we come!!

And finally the time is approaching, the moment we've all been waiting for.. Are you ready for this? Well, here it comes- ladies and gentlemen, SOUL SURVIVOR!!!!!!!

Ahhhhhhhhh! I can't believe it, honestly. I mean, we started counting down at 231 days (I think) and now we'll be on the plane in less than 12 hours =D

Finally, I'm going home =) The idea of being back there just makes me smile so so much.

As expected, I'm "ultra mega superly excited for soul survivor *TOMORROW* yeyy!!" (quoted off my facebook haha) but it's a totally different excitment to last year's. I know exactly what I'm going in for, so it's not like the place is going to be new, even though we're at the opposite side of the campsite this year which would be a grand experience, but I know how it helped to strengthen my faith and how amazing it is to just be living with so many people all for the same reason- GOD. I can be myself and there are no judmental looks are passed my way- everyone's free and diversity rules!! The idea of going back to something that I enjoyed so much last year excites me so so much. To be able to marvel in God's presence back in a field/tent in somerset, all soggy and smothered in mud, is different due to the change in (weather lol) environment. All the green and wetness, everything is so lush ^^

Ok I'm tired so my wording isn't too grand so it's going to be boring to read so I might as well just shut up hehe..

I just can't CAN'T wait to be there, praising God's name with all of my heart and soul and just giving my everything, just letting go once again. It's easier to be so free and open over there because it's totally sincere, desperately praying that y4j becomes that selfless one day..

So, I'll be praying for you all and please pray for us =)

I still have to finish packing and go to the chapel and like, sleep =P Which is actually something good because that means that this afternoon after work I finally decided what to take up and to start packing- typical rache x)

See you all when we come back I guess, we'll all "be changed" as soul survivor itself states and share our experiences and encounters with you.

I hoped to be asleep by around 10, but apparently I won't be once it's half eight and I still have things to do but yeah, it's fine! I probably won't but I'd like to sleep by 11 to get a good five hour's sleep before waking up at 4 to 3 hours on a plane and another 3 on a coach to get to royal bath and west showground- shepton mallet =D (it sounds so great hehe!!) ahhhh can't wait!

So nature calls (teehee) and so does millenium chapel hehe so I'm off..

See most of you soon and to the rest:

God bless you all guys, keep praising =) !! xxxx

living at kris =D

Hello world, I'm back at home..
SO these past few days at kris' house rocked! But like seriously, rocked! Ahh it's so great to just live with a group of insane people that you really really reeeeeally love with all of your heart haha. =)
So the party on wednesday was great, I was dead tired though. I managed about an hour sleep before bio private lessons but after the party we didn't sleep iether (I slept for nearly an hour actually until I got woken up with by weird sentence and bloody fart spray XD) so by 4am we were all singing to singstar on ps2 and laughing and all, but all in all we weren't making tooooo much sound, that is until kris and I decided that it would be funny to imitate charlie bartlet (great film, a must see!) and scream out of the balcony at 5:30am just before watching it again for the second time in two nights XD *video on facebook*
Well the neighbours didn't really appreciate our youthfulness and apart from telling us off twice and during the second time treatening to call the police (both times were in broad daylight might I add), they did send the police for us for making noise at 11am.. IN THE MORNING just in case the 'am' is not clear enough =P So yeah, they threatened to take us to court bla bla pretty lame but yeah- a story to tell haha!
We all just spent the day lazing around at kris and then ordered pizza hut and then I went home for a family ikla thing ladidaa. Oh and pete and I made illustrations for our soon to be released book, "how to brush your teeth- for dummies" that can be viewed on karl's facebook haha.
The next morning rob came over just before I was about to shower and run to kai (I always happen to wake up late when I have to go to karla =\ hmm) and after I showered we both walked down to baystreet and back up with his student group and bought groceries and then I went to kai and he went home. Well from her house, after miguel was very impressed with his own heart hehe, kai and I walked to kris and whilst trying to clear up, she managed to break the sink's plumbing XD how psyco is that!?? Fine, then we realised that it wasn't really broken, but on the verge.. but still, kai broke the sink =P
Anyways, the mustard seed was amazing once again. Spent some time with stefan and matt and realised that it was much needed, but I'll post about that later when things clear out. And after that, like around EIGHTEEN of us slept at kris loool! Kai took up slightly more than half the bed even though we were three and kicked me in the face lol which was slightly disturbing at first but then I laughed. I don't think her and I would make a good married couple, it's the second time she's beat me up whislt sharing a bed >_O
And by 6:30am we were back to singstar XD Then people started to leave and arrive again and by lunchtime we left pete and karla at home whilst kris, tine, louis and I went to mc donalds and gochi for lunch. And then we ventured back up to san gwann and I left and now I'm here blogging and about to go up and get ready for work..
So these few days, in a nutshell, have been a total blast!! "haha alcohol... haha have u ever... haha pony... haha neighbours... haha police... haha bein taken to court" <- that's on kris' nic on msn, so so true! I mean, if we all lived a life without God and with a lot of money, we'd all be alcoholics! Or most of us.. Not to mention other things (like karla trying to rape me *coughcough* lool), but yeah, we've realised quite a lot in these past few days.
We're just an amazing happy family that God has blessed each other with, and it rocks =D



My videos: http://www.facebook.com/video/?id=726570832
My photos:http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?id=726570832&ref=pb
Karl's vidoes: http://www.facebook.com/video/?id=519428315
Karl's photos: http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?id=519428315&ref=pb

Those are the ones out so far, now maxine, kai and zoe have their's to put up =D

Hi guys, a quick qucik post. So I spent the night at kris with tine and kris and I didn't sleep a wink so now I'm drained from all energy and we have a party in like 5 hours and I have private lessons in an hour and a half so I'm going to try and run up and get some shut eye quickly =\
So I'll update you afterwards, but yey I'm excited, hope it will be fun =)

back on the rock =)

Hello world =D

I missed you all oh so very very much and even though I've been back here since 2:30am on wednesday morning, the only time I've had at home was spent dismantling and building my wardrobe, sleeping, showering, eating and with people over.. So now I'm finally getting down to blogging whilst amy and vicky are still asleep in the room next door haha.

So, scotland was absolutely amazinggggg! Everything was so green and lush and pure and I could breathe again and the whole place was basically just screaming God's name. Everwhere was just radiating His glory and majesty and ahhhhh much time was spent with me just sitting in that silly blue scenic and just totally awestruck. Fine, I could have killed my family and I did have to stop myself from plotting their end but mainly so that I could live there forever and everrrrrr.. But it that's besides the point =P So I'm back and CAN'T wait to go again =)

*amy's alarm just rang for the second time*

Oh oh and yesterday after watching lord of the rings; the return of the king, my old old old friend zach appeared behind my door!! Kai answered and looked confused and I was just shocked. I knew he was coming to malta but at that point in time he was the last person I expected to see. So that was fun..

Ah and I really wanted to take a picture but my camera was off and we were going at like 50(something)m/h but there was 'CHRIST IS ALIVE' graffitied on a wall in scotland =D !!!!!! See guys, we're taking over the world muahahahahahaaaa.

*and it rang again!!*

And since I've been back I spent a day at achie with first bio intermediate private lessons ever (it's cool starting something after like over a year again) and back at achie to sleep, a day with zoe and ach just travelling from her to mine to zoe's house and then to the y4j worshops and then to the cassar residence =P a day being a carpenter and then going to mustards and seeing everyone fully again *gleeeeee* =D with achie, kai and debbie sleeping here and us staying out till running around swieqi pv area with rob and mig and confusingness lol and theeen a day making sandwiches (for no reason) and watching lotr and going to work and going out and waking up the next day to blog.. Tadaaaaa

Oh and I lost my usb and my camera only excepts that one so I'm cameraless cos I have 3gb of photos minus like 19 or something of scotland, yes, I went a bit camera crazy XD

Once again another pointless blog =P

Mwaaa God bless you all!!!!

hello from scotland =)

Yoo!

I'm at a really cozy guest house in stirling at the moment, king street haha. This is honestly AMAZING!! Talk about beautiful and the weather- beautiful =D

Trying to cut down on taking photos cos of memory space but if worst comes to worst I'll just buy another memory card. Spent the whole day traveling yesterday, from like 9am till 10pm (english time 9pm) in which I managed to sleep for around half an hour and read lots of my bible plus thought and prayed and watched "horbert hears a who" on the plane XD crazy! *but very rache haha*

All I can really say is that I'm loving the scenery, it's so lush and green and beauuuuutiful!

Traveling to aberfoyle by car today (have to get a car first XD) and spending the night in a lodge thing- how grand =D yeyyyyyy foresty photos on the way >.<

I'm off now, there's a small shoe shop right across my window lol so I'm going to check it out haha. 

God bless!!

hello nessy?.. or not =P

Hi guys!
So tomorrow I fly to scotland with my family (oh the joy =P) and will remain enjoying the pretty lush greeness for the following 8 days =D I messaged paul (my ex scottish boss) and yes I must say, I really do miss him and will for like, well, a long time I guess. But no, it's not the end haha!So we're travelling up scotland and my plan is to fill my camera's memory card to the brim and in doing so capture a good shot of the non exsistant lochness monster- wish me luck =P haha yeah right..

I woke up this morning and decided it was about time to see what to take with me and it actually took pretty long =\ I have no clue how some people can plan their wardrobe out for the upcoming week every week. I nearly went insane doing it for just one holiday! But anyway..

Kris and I had to sing/play for mass today- ouch. Morning/no voice and no songs in mind= blehh lool but yeah, Jesus still loves us ^^ and then we went to exiles and well, I left cos I acted like a fool but I couldn't really control myself but I won't get into that and I came home and stared and packed and read and stared whilst everyone is out and I'm here at home laughing with leon on msn.

So that's my current situation. See, I'm not excited for tomorrow, which is really odd once I want to study in scotland. Maybe it's cos we're not visiting aberdeen (university of aberdeen is my goal at the moment) and we're not spending much time in edinbrugh. Don't get me wrong, taking photos of the isle of skye and loch lomod etc will be fun but like, I don't know. I guess I'm to psyced to go back to soul survivor =\ which isn't a bad thing at all, but I wish I was slightly more excited to go to scotland.. I mean, it's scotland!! I've always wanted to go and now it's like another night at home.. what's wrong with me?

Hmm, eight days with my parents and sister.. Excluding the two hours in the maltese airport and one hour in mancester, we're stuck together in a confinded place for three hours on a plane and five hours on a train right after it- that's probably a big input to me not being too estatic =P

Hopefully I'll get into it when I arrive =) viva my ipod and my bible eh ;)

So that's it guys, I'll miss you all loads..

God bless and take care and keep praying =D

Oh and there's the outreach next week too, so pray for them =)

And a big well done to all you Olevelers for doing so so well, I'm so proud of you my chickens. Sure the As did well too =) and first years haha!! Good night!! =)

an update..

Hii!

Ok I'm real tired at the moment so bare with me =P I'm sitting here eating a curly wurly that I found in the fridge and it's brougth back so many memories of being young and being over the moon when I saw one in a shop. Same thing happened at dreggs (soul survivor) when I saw one and bought it without any hesitation whatsoever. The truth is, it isn't even too amazing but it's kinda significant I guess. More like sentimental.. I'm falling asleep..

Talking about falling asleep. I didn't manage to sleep before monday night so I actually started dozing off at the social for a while >.< (Ok I saved this and went to bed cos I actually did just flop onto my keyboard lol) It really was a fun night, slightly weird at a point (lool) but quite funny, so thanks sam =)

Tuesday we went to exiles and laughed about the former night and then walked to gelateria to get alift to sam for band and thennn, we had worship team and when we were done paul and I walked to pembroke together with sean and ivan who stopped in san gwann whilst we ventured into the valley on our own, like two cousins on an outrageous adventure =D haha and paul actually accused me of decieving him =O how offensive cousin =P but we parted ways at the traffic lights near luxol and he went to drea and I went to amy to meet her and paula. Yes yes, 'twas a good night ^^

Next day I woke up at like eightish and was messaging together with dozing off and waking up for about two hours and then I prayed and thought and read and at 12pm, finally, amy awoke from her beauty sleep >.<>

I blowdried bett's hair for her social and in the meanwhile ended up chemically straightening sam's hair (stinking the cassar residance as if we were in world war two) and laughing loads and loads.. And then, I ran to work cos I was late and my mum's car died on her >.<

That's about it guys, God bless!!

a taste of the future ^^

Wow, I havn't blogged in a while hehe..

So last night we crashed bev's house just as we had done two summers ago when her parents were in gozo. I think that this year we were 29 in all. We watched "I am Legend" and whilst I was trying to watch a film that I had really enjoyed watching on a big screen, brooks was busy telling everyone what was about to happen and giving reasons that they would get to know throughout the film- grrrrrrrrr =P

The kitchen was literally like being back in henry j beans kitchen whilst we were cooking pizza after pizza and the rest of the group were all flopped all over bev's living room enjoying the comfort of an ac haha. When the place started to empty out we decided to play uno with an extra rule thanks to sam >.<>

But through all the noise and wii and excess amounts of "that's not my name", at like 2:30am, everyone who wasn't sleeping over left. Bev, achie, tine, maxine, philippa, larissa, lara jo and I remained dancing and singing to chipmunked versions of songs, laughing and having some girl talk XD

I ended up "sleeping" for less than ten minutes and at 6:50am, maxine achie and lara jo decided that it was a good time to cook some pasta with red sauce and feta cheese- AT 6:50AM = *blehhhhh* !!!!

Yes, insane.. But anyways..

Phil left first and then achie and after brushing my teeth in the bide (I don't do french- it's that little ass washing thing near the toilet usually XD), tine and I walked to peter calamatta gardens (lool) and then to uni and then caught a bus to valletta to meet amy (who came an hour late haha) and anyways then tine left and amy and I bussed it down to meet paula and then I went home.

But I just wanted to point out something. Whilst we were chucked on the sofa sam pointed it out that this is what we'll be doing when we're older. Chilling at eachother's houses every other day and staying there till late and probably sleeping over all the time- how great is that?!

Ahhhh I love our group ^^ it's so grand to have good clean fun, just makes me smile *gleeee* =D

Well, I think I shall try and sleep for an hour and decide what to wear for the social tonight >.<

God bless you all and good night.. =)

band meeting

Hello again.
So last night we had a proper band meeting after a long time cos of exams and stuff. And by proper, as in, nearly everyone was there except pete naudi who's abroad and ivan who had work. Well, it was great teehee. I missed it, loads.
Won't say anything that I shouldn't but we really did laugh together and yes, girls do rock (haha bettinaaaaa) !! We took a couple of silly videos so now bett will probably put them up on our myspace or something (http://www.myspace.com/y4jband.com) and then you can all view our insanity when mixed with mega tiredness and lack of diet coke >.< Well, my lack of diet coke =P
So that's about it really. Please pray for us guys =)
Off for buy some diet coke to take to ed's (brooks') house.. haha not much of a suprise now is it ed- you know what you're getting muahahahahaaaaa =P
God bless you alllllllllll...............